Impulses

From one of the episode of Greys -I learnt that at any given moment the brain has 14 billions neurons firing at a speed of 450 miles per hour. We don’t have control over most of the them.- when we get a chill, goose bums, when we get excited, adrenalin..


The body naturally follows its impulses, which I think is the part that makes it so hard for us to control ours. Of course sometimes we have impulses that we rather not control ;-)



After my move to Noida, I went soft at work. Loneliness - missing my friends from Belfast and me regretting not keeping in touch with people made me soft. I swore it would not affect my work! I got tired, I got busy and I stopped learning. I stopped learning when I had to learn the most. I went soft… I closed doors for new people to be a part of my life.. I would hang around with my new colleagues and still not acknowledge them being a part of my life. Dave was smart enough to embrace the change I wasn’t. Each move has been traumatic for me in my own way and I have lost out on so much time accepting the change.

The change that I have today in front of me is that after 3 months of night, of not seeing much of Dave, the management, the other teams, the world so to say – I have the early shift starting today. I am thinking of my post “Paranoia”.. I am thinking of my impulses at work and how I would control them..



The body is a slave to its impulses. But the thing that makes us human is that – we can control! After the storm after the rush, after the heat of the moment has passed – we can cool off and clean up the messes that we have made.