Trusting

I wouldn’t trust anyone to drive a car as good and safe as Dave, I wouldn’t trust anyone when it came to converting me into a non-vegetarian. Irony is trust is hard to achieve, because from day one you have been trained not to trust anyone but ourselves. I am sure if I knew how to drive a car I would trust myself more than Dave.The only skills you can count on are your own. Until one day when you leave your world and step into the real world you are surrounded by others. A team that you have to rely on but do you trust them?

I want to go away I don’t want to disappoint the people I love anymore. Dave says I am better than this (failure), he says I have been better than this. Dave wants me to get better be the person he knew I was. Be me!

What I think I should do to win, what I need to do to beat them is to stop fighting them. I need to be me…. I need to be me.

I don’t expect to win their (work, friends, home...) trust overnight which is why I am here saying they have mine. I apologise to push back on their help!

This is me making my comeback honouring the effort of my sister helping through my science, the belief my brother had in me, the unconditional love from my Mom, the pride that my Dad has in the values he has given me, Gaurav’s words of encouragement and strength as a friend, honouring the commitment, love, care and most of all non-stop believing in me, standing beside me - my husband.

(Its a beautiful morning sun, its beautiful as the feeling in my mind- It depicts the new me!)